Hey There little person,
About 2 days ago we watched your heartbeat. This little white bleeping on the ultrasound. Simply amazing. Just to think you were 10,000 times smaller than what you are now, just amazing. The mystery and the majesty of you. I think we are watching the essence of creation right now in your growing and forming. I imagine the G-d's hands forming your hand's and eyes and body. Your amazing, I wonder what you'll be like, if you'll take after your mom or me or combine us or be someone completely different, either way we love you! We told your grandmother today. She just about jumped out of her skin in excitement. Your the first grandchild. Which means your going to be like I was, completely the favorite of her. Whether she says it or not. We are sitting around on Thanksgiving 2010 and I can imagine you'll be here for the next one. I am so glad your here, that your coming. Your mother and I have never been closer.
I want you to know something, there is nothing you can do to make me love you less. I may be frustrated with you but that's normal. I want the best for you. I want you to be wise. I want you to read Heschel and have it touch your soul like it did mine. I want the Word of God to really be life for you. I want you to know that your walk with God is important, and I don't mean some shallow mention of a far off being. I mean the presence of the Creator. I mean the Weight of Glory. When you feel small, you'll know. When you open your eyes and see the vastness of life, you'll know. When you pray and feel the authority rise up from a place deeper than you, you'll know. When you feel abandoned with nothing to help but not alone and a new strength reveals Himself, you'll know.
I wish you could have seen our faces when the heartbeat was first seen. The tears and gasps of awe. You have brought the culmination of Marriage. I've been thinking of the Trinity and how they work together and I think of your mom and I and how we work together. It's not completely the same but its an image of it. I wish the weight of the words I have in me was on this page. Your going to be amazing, you already are. I love you, see you soon,
Your Dad.
Thursday, November 25, 2010
Thursday, November 11, 2010
Just found out
Hey Baby,
I just found out last night that you were sitting in my wife's womb. I think my first reaction was really? No way! So me and your mother sat around and went back and forth about getting another pregnancy test to be sure. She almost left without me, running to the door while I was about to go to sleep. Don't jump to conclusions, I was in school and exhausted but I heard the rattle of her keys and sprang up to catch her at the door. We drove out to the Giant Eagle and grabbed a 2 pack just to be sure. As soon as we got home it was test time and sure enough to red lines were so vivid it was beyond shocking. Surreal is an understatement. I was beyond feeling, I felt great, I felt in awe, I felt like I wasn't standing on the planet earth, I felt like the whole of creation was singing, I felt like crying and singing and laughing. If I could have I would have ran around with a bullhorn shouting it down the street. All because you were made known to me and your mom. You did that, you know? And right now your so small I can barely fathom it but in a short time you'll be out making the world a better place. You'll be proving the mysteries of God, you'll be teaching me more about how He feels about us because of how I feel about you. You are already teaching me how my dad feels about me even though he would articulate it I didn't fathom it. You make me miss my dad, you make me love my dad more. I'm sitting here crying about all the possibilities that are yours and you don't even know it. I am so glad I write music more than write blog's, because this is so big I cant find the right combinations of words to tell what is going on now. You make me want to be a better man, to learn so much so I can teach you more.
I want to show you the joy of music and the woods and talking.
I want you to sit on my lap and fall asleep.
I want you to be all that you were created to be.
I want you to know you were picked by God to be here now for this time and for a purpose.
I want you to know that even now He is putting you together in an awesome way.
I want you to know that He is calling your name even now. That He know's your name even before I do. That He is always there, that He picked this time for you 13 billions years ago and wants you to grow up to know Him. You will never be more loved, and there is nothing that can change that. I can't wait for you to read this, I can't wait to stop crying for a minute. I am surprised I was able to type. I really need a paper towel.
Some advise I can think of now is, when your wife thinks that she is pregnant she is probably right, if your a girl, you'll know your pregnant regardless of a test. But get one for your husband, just so he can be sure, we need tests for things. Its rounding 10:30 and I am going to get your mother some food. I guess its for both of you. I hope you like Luigi's. Either way your going to get it. I love you. See you soon,
Your Dad.
I just found out last night that you were sitting in my wife's womb. I think my first reaction was really? No way! So me and your mother sat around and went back and forth about getting another pregnancy test to be sure. She almost left without me, running to the door while I was about to go to sleep. Don't jump to conclusions, I was in school and exhausted but I heard the rattle of her keys and sprang up to catch her at the door. We drove out to the Giant Eagle and grabbed a 2 pack just to be sure. As soon as we got home it was test time and sure enough to red lines were so vivid it was beyond shocking. Surreal is an understatement. I was beyond feeling, I felt great, I felt in awe, I felt like I wasn't standing on the planet earth, I felt like the whole of creation was singing, I felt like crying and singing and laughing. If I could have I would have ran around with a bullhorn shouting it down the street. All because you were made known to me and your mom. You did that, you know? And right now your so small I can barely fathom it but in a short time you'll be out making the world a better place. You'll be proving the mysteries of God, you'll be teaching me more about how He feels about us because of how I feel about you. You are already teaching me how my dad feels about me even though he would articulate it I didn't fathom it. You make me miss my dad, you make me love my dad more. I'm sitting here crying about all the possibilities that are yours and you don't even know it. I am so glad I write music more than write blog's, because this is so big I cant find the right combinations of words to tell what is going on now. You make me want to be a better man, to learn so much so I can teach you more.
I want to show you the joy of music and the woods and talking.
I want you to sit on my lap and fall asleep.
I want you to be all that you were created to be.
I want you to know you were picked by God to be here now for this time and for a purpose.
I want you to know that even now He is putting you together in an awesome way.
I want you to know that He is calling your name even now. That He know's your name even before I do. That He is always there, that He picked this time for you 13 billions years ago and wants you to grow up to know Him. You will never be more loved, and there is nothing that can change that. I can't wait for you to read this, I can't wait to stop crying for a minute. I am surprised I was able to type. I really need a paper towel.
Some advise I can think of now is, when your wife thinks that she is pregnant she is probably right, if your a girl, you'll know your pregnant regardless of a test. But get one for your husband, just so he can be sure, we need tests for things. Its rounding 10:30 and I am going to get your mother some food. I guess its for both of you. I hope you like Luigi's. Either way your going to get it. I love you. See you soon,
Your Dad.
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