Week 5

Hey There little person,

   About 2 days ago we watched your heartbeat. This little white bleeping on the ultrasound. Simply amazing. Just to think you were 10,000 times smaller than what you are now, just amazing. The mystery and the majesty of you. I think we are watching the essence of creation right now in your growing and forming. I imagine the G-d's hands forming your hand's and eyes and body. Your amazing, I wonder what you'll be like, if you'll take after your mom or me or combine us or be someone completely different, either way we love you! We told your grandmother today. She just about jumped out of her skin in excitement. Your the first grandchild. Which means your going to be like I was, completely the favorite of her. Whether she says it or not. We are sitting around on Thanksgiving 2010 and I  can imagine you'll be here for the next one. I am so glad your here, that your coming. Your mother and I have never been closer.

I want you to know something, there is nothing you can do to make me love you less. I may be frustrated with you but that's normal. I want the best for you. I want you to be wise. I want you to read Heschel and have it touch your soul like it did mine. I want the Word of God to really be life for you. I want you to know that your walk with God is important, and I don't mean some shallow mention of a far off being. I mean the presence of the Creator. I mean the Weight of Glory. When you feel small, you'll know. When you open your eyes and see the vastness of life, you'll know. When you pray and feel the authority rise up from a place deeper than you, you'll know. When you feel abandoned with nothing to help but not alone and a new strength reveals Himself, you'll know.

I wish you could have seen our faces when the heartbeat was first seen. The tears and gasps of awe.  You have brought the culmination of Marriage. I've been thinking of the Trinity and how they work together and I think of your mom and I and how we work together. It's not completely the same but its an image of it. I wish the weight of the words I have in me was on this page. Your going to be amazing, you already are. I love you, see you soon,

Your Dad.